Coaching 5, Post 2, Coachee

I shared most of my stream of consciousness writing with my coach this week. She said that she felt like I really shared a lot of myself, and we agreed that was good for our communication and coaching relationship. We discussed the things our stream of consciousness writings had in common, which led to a fun discussion about the ways we are perceiving this class. Personal growth is an experience we are both having in this course, to include mindfulness and deliberation in our thinking, speaking and acting. We also concluded that the course should end on on top of a mountain during sunrise.

Here are some parts of my stream of consciousness writing.

My highest future potential self helps others be their highest future potential selves. I want to turn down the volume on other people’s problems or make them help them see how capable they are and that they can just be themselves without any boundaries. I am obsessed with new experiences and sensory inputs. This is person, I am a person, my future person is a person who makes people happy with themselves, not necessarily happy with me but happy with their own being in their own situation. Maybe I help them achieve something great but I don’t know about that. More I just want people to like themselves enough to want ot help other people like themselves. Ultimately it’s selfish I suppose because I just want people to be nice to me and people are nicer when they are more fully realized. I want people to see a world where anyone can be anything. I want people to see that we are a species meant to live lives of hobbies and passions, for these are the things that matter BECAUSE THEY MATTER TO US. No one has to tell us to do the things we enjoy, yet so many people are kept from doing the things they enjoy by circumstance. I am at alignment with this version of myself when I perform and people laugh. When someone thanks me for doing something I would have done anyway I feel very good about myself because I know I am helping. The validation is nice, but knowing that I helped someone be a better person is the real meat of why I like to hear what people think about what I do. I want to help someone love themself. That’s what I want. I want to show people what is beautiful about them so they can love themself. I have been told that I, sometimes to a fault, see only the best in people, or see them how they see themselves. This is acutally very intentional on my part for two reasons. First, I want to affirm other people’s positive and healthy perceptions of themselves so thay they like themselves. Second, I want to fill my reality with awesome people. If people are not hurting me or actively making my experience painful, what is the harm in seeing them as only the best versions of themselves? It’s quite fun actually. I suppose I want to create art that helps people empathize. That’s quite a ways away from helping people love themselves, but not really. I want to inspire people to put their personalities and physiologies out into the world. I want us all to “plug in” to each other and experience our personalities and physiologies fully. I want people to feel, but not in a selfish sense. I want to connect the kind of emotions that come from art TO THE REAL WORLD. I want to turn on people’s empathy. I want to use VR to promote empathy and theory of mind.